Hi sun. I feel like you’re happily smiling at me. Hee hee. It’s a brand new day! I better get my ass out of here ‘coz boyfie might give me some growl if I still stay here hahahahahahahahahahaha. Good morning my dear.
Lord, thank you for everything. Hee hee.
Yes, he’s so proud introducing you to his friends. Like saying “Hey, this is my girl.” Despite all their jerks, you’re his only exception. That he is that real man but still has the heart to love a girl deeply. He will choose you over friends, it’s not that because you crave to be the first in the list of his priorities but because he knows you’re precious and don’t deserve to be set aside.
He has this feeling that whenever he is as long as you are there, he’ll be like the king. He knows that his queen is his best piece. He knows the importance of his queen, and his kingdom will always be that powerful because of the presence of his queen.
Nothing compares to the feeling when he’s saying your name many times in the middle of the night. Telling he loves that girl, telling he’s inlove deeply with that girl…and you have nothing to do but to smile and hug him then continue sleeping. He doesn’t need your response anyway, he’s in the midst of his dream or whatever. It’s very overwhelming when you know you’re still the girl in his dreams, the girl his thinking of though he’s drunk or not. That man, a kind of jerk but incomparable.
I honestly don’t know what to feel. HIndi ko alam kung good news or bad news ba yung sinabi sakin ni Jonjon. Isa lang ang alam ko, hindi ako masaya.
Kahit pa hindi ko alam kung sure na ba yun or what kahit may pinakita na siyang booking sakin, I’m still not convinced. Nainis ako na after several hours na hindi niya ko kinakausap kahit pa online siya, ganun pa yung ibubungad niya sakin. I feel shit. Nakakainis ng bigtime.
I should be happy for him. Kase finally, may gagawin na siya sa bakasyon. Makabuluhan na yung magiging summer niya. Hindi na siya matatawag na “palamunin” ayon sa kanya. But that’s kinda far from here. One reason siguro kung bakit I feel like this, kase hindi ako sanay na malayo siya sakin. Yung kapag 3 araw nga lang na aalis ako papunta sa ibang bansa, hinahanap ko agad siya. Within here in the Philippines lang naman to eh, pero feeling ko pupunta siya ng North Pole. Putragis.
Sana, tutal, iniispoil ko naman na yung plano niya, may part sakin na nagsasabing sana hindi matuloy. Kase sabi nila pag pinangunahan mo, hindi natutuloy. Pwes, pinapangunahan ko na siya sa mga oras na to. Hindi ko maisip na for 2 months, he’ll be away from me.
Sa totoo lang, okay lang eh (promise, okay lang talaga). I trust him. Whatever man ang gawin niya dun, I want to believe on him na it’s just for the work. Experience lang daw. Putanginang experience, pag yan ibang experience. Ay nako talaga. Wag na siyang uuwi dito. I have to admit to myself. I’m scared na mawalan kami ng communication sa isa’t isa. I know him so well. Pag okay kami tapos aalis siya, he would say “itetext kita or tatawagan kita palagi” but damn he’s doing the opposite. Yun siguro yung one thing why I won’t let him get this job. Nakakainis naman kase talaga diba. Worst is, may promise pa eh. Eh kung sana yung promise tinutupad, walang problema diba? Eh pa’no pag hindi? Edi nganga.
I still don’t know the full info about this… ugh, shit. Maybe we’ll talk about it when we got the chance to see each other. Madami kaming dapat pag-usapan. I will (try to) understand everything he’ll gonna say as I can. Ofcourse I wanna know the reasons why he chose it. Tangina may makati naman. May pasay. May paranaque. Ang dami dito sa manila! Bakit dun pa? Fuck traffic and hassle reasons. I wanna know more.
But one thing is or sure, pagod na kong maniwala sa kasinungalingan. Why don’t he try something else like being honest and real? It’s a lot easier.
"You can always look up at the sky and make a wish." - Anonymous
Too bad I got no chance to ask for his’ name. He said he gonna catch up some sleep. So I just wish him some good night rest. Hee hee.
At ang tunay na boyfriend, wala neto. Imahinasyon ko lang to. Ge, bitter ako eh.
Wala akong ibang magawa kundi murahin ka sa isip ko.
Magmumukha ako masyadong desperadang makipagkita sayo pag pinilit kong pumunta dyan sa inyo makita ka lang. Tangina oh diba ang sweet. Hindi na ko maghihintay na magkusa ka dahil alam kong malabong mangyari yun. Hahayaan nalang kitang i-enjoy mo yung araw mo. Nakakatamad kang kausap. Lakas mo pang mang-seenzoned. Ge, astig ka eh. Mamu.